ange & lauren’s big mtl adventure

it is (canadian) thanksgiving weekend, so lauren and i took advantage of the long weekend to head back to the greater toronto area.

i exclusively spent the time with various family members in exotic locales such as brampton, niagara falls, and welland. i spent most of the time with my brother and my folks in brampton.

my mom and i spent saturday night sitting out by the fire pit with a few drinks. we talked for hours. topics included how smart i was a child, the game show network, and being back in school. at one point in the evening, my mom took a couple minutes to talk about anxiety/worrying all the time. i clearly inherited these traits from her (whether it was nature or nurture, this is the end result).

she told me i had to stop worrying so much. she told me to enjoy my life. it felt slightly tv sitcom-like but also incredibly awesome and important to hear my mom telling me these things. she doesn’t really understand my choices or my life, but she reminded me that i only have one shot at life and that i should do whatever makes me happy and to “spend what you got”. it’s clear, not only, that my mom is getting weird in her old age (i say this in jest) but that she’s been thinking about me and about life in general in a way that i never gave her credit for before. it’s strange but incredibly gratifying to recognize how our relationship has evolved to one between two adults rather than adult and child.

meanwhile, i’m reminded that the more things change the more they stay the same. my dad and i argued about politics and my mom is sending lauren and i back to montreal with homemade lasagna!

september has been an overwhelming month but i feel slightly better prepared (perhaps even rejuvenated) and ready to get down to the business of ENJOYING myself again.