ange & lauren’s big mtl adventure

my biggest challenge this week has been coming to terms (at work) that i’m actually leaving. no matter how much of a kid i feel like, i am feeling the magnitude of my absence at work. like anything else, they’ll find a way to go on without me & a suitable replacement (occasionally i am lead to believe that a well-trained monkey can do my job). but i can feel this weight of recognition. at least a little bit. and pride. in what i manage to accomplish on a weekly basis.

this coming to terms has felt kind of crazy and strange and has lead to that exhilaration that had previously been missing. i can’t even imagine NOT being employed in a 50-60 hours (plus) work week but i’m looking forward to it. i’m not looking forward to the need to piece together income in such a haphazard kind of way (combining my research assistant position with freelancing and other miscellaneous university jobs) but i think it will be fine. maybe even fun. and keep life interesting.

i’m looking forward to the keeping life interesting part. to the new city. to painting and organizing the apartment with lauren. to weekend visitors. to grocery shopping. to time to sew and PVR and cooking delicious food. to weekends dedicated to papers and weekends dedicated to road trips “home” and weekends dedicated to our 2 year anniversary!

i was joking at work today that my job may have helped kick my procrastination habit (hah! we’ll see about that) and helped me build good time management skills because i’m used to managing and fitting so much work into relatively small periods of time. we’ll see how that goes. i’m tempted to keep life busy because it may help me be productive and efficient. but maybe i’m owed less efficiency and productivity in the name of procrastination. uh, i mean, relaxation.